Thursday, January 4, 2024


on checkered linoleum


the interview


do not touch the eggshells
in the box casting  a shadow
on checkered linoleum
do not touch to touch is
to pretend sounds disfigured
hanging in bloated darkness
of ritualistic chaos  of doors
opening and doors closing
pretending always pretending
laughter as techniques for
not touching eggshells in
a box casting a shadow on
checkered linoleum are 
demonstrated dramatically

the interview
what can you tell us about
the doors? the doors were
opening and the doors were
closing  and  the eggshells?
there were no eggshells
in a box casting a shadow on
checkered linoleum and the
chaos? the chaos was ritualistic
you were laughing, why? i was
laughing as i was demonstrating
dramatically techniques for
pretending there were eggshells
in a box casting a shadow on
checkered linoleum can you 
tell us what you learned from
this experience? i learned from 
this experience.




 

Friday, June 2, 2023

 painting flowers

we are lip readers and
between the index and make 
up we carry pup tents
on our backs and we chant

did you like our
chanting? we know it 
is dark and smoky
but could you hear it?
our chanting ?  i mean in
the corn fields and under
the palmy phalluses
stolen 
from the xxxs and
ooos of your unhinged
comfort
bones dripping delicate
silence

the wrong # you dialed
the wrong # we knew
but we answered anyway
and we offered you
an unspecified consolation
prize
the offer expires soon
so don't wait until
the shadows of dancing
clover
appear on your hollow
innocence
where abstract chains
rattle without geometric
precision

we are lip readers and
we chant while we set
up our pup tents after
we have taken them
off our backs

(yes it was distressing
to watch the old tattered
faded black umbrella
slip and fall on the
slippery distance of 
your uncertainty)

we are lip readers and
our pup tents are our
passengers
and yesterday morning
in the doll house we
spent one hour painting
flowers
while our passengers looked on
they were white flowers
you know
white flowers
and they begged us to 
dress  them in different
colours so we did


a triptych

escaping through smoky mist
dripping from caramelized
apple trees a dream a pale
blue dream sneaking inside
softly closing doors leaving
behind decomposing street names
and frozen silhouettes shivering
__________________________

come to sightsee have you
expecting you we left some
clouds unwhispered too many
tourists come to listen to the
clouds before surrendering
blistered to fading shadows
we regret to inform you that
the lecture on pale blue rubber
bands has been cancelled and 
no one knows why
__________________________

in the middle of a street  cracked
and forgotten a ladder a pair of
binoculars and a warning do
not eat the jellyfish they are
pale blue the jellyfish are


unfinished

a word unfinished
interrupted by stories
stories of the invisible
the misfits the forlorn
gasping at the stench
of the beautiful
no favorites to be
found here in the
company of an
unvisited pendulum and
some angry bubble 
gum

you were playing in
the dirt i have been told
what was that like
playing in the dirt?
heavy
the losses were understood
and colourless
but you always won
i lied
like so many, i lied
don't you?
sometimes?
lie?


at the bus station

the adventure, remember? its
distorted scars, its scattered
traces of imperfectly sunlit
fog and its illusions escaped
from song and trance

the adventure, remember? its
scars 
clean and smooth then their
sorrow invisible to all
but you and me the fog

remember? its weightlessness 
so perfectly sunlit and
the illusions too remember?
their ripeness full as forgotten
fruit abandoned in towers of
endless submission and loneliness

things getting a little crazy
in the laundromat, remember?

and the purple flames, remember?
of candles piercing the weightless 
fog their lack of privacy lamented

and surely you must remember the
magical colours carousing with
abandon  in lower case volcanos

and










Tuesday, February 22, 2022

nights


confessions

confessions of dust
faltering in the shadows
of sun and moon 

you count the screams
you gathered near
the carcasses of
abandoned intentions

and naked you search
the clouds for imaginary

nights


while the orchestra plays
a requiem for exhausted
tin cans

the sun frowns
the moon sighs


night then morning

silvering dark the 
night on the wall
a clock offers only
a wedge of fleeting
comfort clinging
to the silvering
dark a raindrop
fresh and pregnant

your faithless
lipstick  you tell me
(on the phone)
has vanished what
colour the faithless
lipstick i ask
you laugh
i hang up

the silvering dark
of the elastic
night bribes you
with a front row seat
at the coronation
of a frog

in the morning
you watch a
raindrop give birth


the unveiling

it is late on bare feet
the unveiling is watched
from behind the burden
of unforgiveness where
sin is lit with a match
not a zippo lighter

a barefoot unzippolit
night sighs on your
privacy and you know
your face belongs
not to you and your
voice belongs not 
to you nor the strings
that make you move

        take not the elevator
        take the stairs instead
      
        

(your shoes
where are your shoes?)


tuesday

a postcard arrived today
a tuesday
the postcard is addressed
to you
the handwriting on the
postcard looks familiar

it says you changed
your mind  

the image on the 
postcard that
arrived today
a tuesday
is of a lost
simplicity

the night is humid
and sultry


rhythms

a rhythm
again a rhythm
discovered in vacancies
surrendered

bedtime stories offer
no respite from  the dangers
of unfamiliarity

in another rhythm it is
a misplaced self you are
searching for

scale models of lust and 
sweat you built in years
forgotten now
is what you find
(instead)

your scars
self inflicted?
you read bedtime stories....
i get it

and you created
rhythms
rhythms to help you
find a misplaced self

rhythms are nothing more than
the never ending ebb and flow
of then and now








Sunday, November 14, 2021

 the walk

i sent you a photograph today
it is of a tree dressed in white
i was out for a walk with my dog
we walk on a path along a river nearby
some years during spring break up ice floes jam 
causing the river to flood the path and we must wait
sometimes for days before we can walk there again

but today it is winter
the geese headed south weeks ago
deer tracks dot the snow covering
the ice on the river
the sky is grey and silent



Sunday, June 13, 2021

untitled #53

 windswept illusions
celebrated behind an
almost bird's nest on
this a suitcase morning

wearing your mother's
sunglasses a guitar
drips silken lingerie 
on the altar and
the breeze is dark
as lead

it wasn't always 
like this take
yesterday for
example there
were flowers paper
flowers faded
paper flowers and
a harmonica playing
gypsy music applause
went for 5.75 a pop


musings 1


through buildings dark
and exhausted you
take me

my fragmented memories 
of irony and lust
unravel amid dancing
harlequins

bleed delicately you
whisper for you know
come morning my
secrets will evaporate


naked


putting on your dancing slippers
the ones made  of tangerine plastic
while being trapped in
the embers of your lust
your scarstudded solitude celebrated
in the raw narrative of your 
naked
surrender
(ferriswheels, a bench you slept on, 
an inkpot , a brigitte bardot movie)

on a deserted beach you
wink at the moon and hold out your hand
come, you say,
let's dance
bought at a roadside stand, the dancing
slippers made of tangerine plastic
were

forms filled out, boxes checked and
on the dotted line
a signature


invisible wounds

a spirit of woundedness
lurks in the backroom of your now
unforgiving and shifting ghosts
tauntingly poke at the empty and
disillusioned spaces you once thought
you could be invisible in

but arriving at the lighthouse
you know even invisible wounds 
are not really invisible

the lighthouse

once a beacon now a derelict silence
white splatters of birdshit covering
its worn red roof

this is the last picture of the day
you are tired and thirsty you
head back to the hotel in the lounge
you order a drink after easing yourself
into a soft and comfortable chair
you flip through the pictures
you took today and the day before


you order another drink then you
delete all the pictures you took today 
and the day before
you order another drink


come morning you tell yourself
you will  pack your things
and go home





Wednesday, February 10, 2021

found objects

a better choice of
words perhaps but
now the mousetraps
baitless and mute
drifting in disco illusions

they are merely found
objects like seaweed
quivering in a collection
of sunday afternoons or
submissive obsessions
in a b/w documentary

and so you walk on
the search neverending
black vinyl boots
shiny and cruel
laughing gas and
pretty edibles and 
you watch with
fascination as passwords
dissolve in an abstract
dance of comic strips

the walrus

the moon is sightseeing
and wanders into a field
of disillusioned tulips
you stay behind to keep
an eye on the walrus
come to sit on the edge
of your bed

says the walrus wetly

a gun the colour of soot
was found by a child
faraway somewhere

you are surprised
soot was added to the
list of ingredients

the walrus sobs quietly


silence 1

you listen to the echoes
of your silence
interrupted collections of
sounds you once occupied
(a train departs  another arrives)
you trade yesterday's theatre
for today's performance
of silence its echoes
 weaving in and out
of arrivals and departures


silence 2

the hour you shredded with
memories invented and not
litters an empty dream
laced with nylon darkness

forgotten silences offer no
respite and the wound on
your illusion is infected
and festering

you  place your wounds in 
circles that are never perfect
and you ask yourself why
you cannot ever make circles
that are perfect / why you
invented memories and
you wish you could remember
all the silences you have
forgotten

you yearn for a campfire


silence 3

and then a door opens
there are connections
here to motion pictures
bobbing on waves
toward mystical
negative spaces

time can be found here
and time can be lost here
in this foggy landscape
of raw and seductive misery

and you ask if this is
where the camels sleep
it's a mirage the dark and
heavy silence finally breaking

and wondering if you have
said too much wondering if
there was more you could
have said you close the door

leopard skins

in the morning there
is snow it came
in the middle of the
night
the snow
soundlessly in the
middle of the dark
night
the snow
descended on
the earth

you drink apple wine
and the memory of 
nothing
exists in the murky
puddle of the 
melted snow

then a thought arrives
a thought of leopard skins

clean was
the snow
that landed on your
path then
it melted and
the melted snow
turned murky

leopard skins
are not murky


imagine

imagine if you
will a landscape
filled with bleeding
voices unvisited
 and
scattered here and
there
shifting spaces

the cruelty of
twisted reflections you
escaped only to
get trapped in a tangle
of regrets and longing

imagine if you
will         a landscape
filled with pastel
strangers  their 
unpredictable 
zigzagging chaos not
totally unwelcome

imagine if you 
will
a landscape with
a single easy chair

(to sit in)








Sunday, February 3, 2019

ghosts

no refunds

get dressed
the midway joker
tells a firefly
(looks at the clock)
words self inflicted
coming back to the ground
and the snow at the carnival
a firefly is getting dressed
spinning outside the
narrative of ghosts
drizzling champagne
on lonely streets
frostbitten black stockings
ruined on a treadmill

you heard it wrong
you admit but no refunds
on self inflicted words


over at the carnival
a firefly is getting dressed

untitled #66

faded denim peeling away
from your indifferent body
shades of smoke caress
a lightbulb dangling naked
from the ceiling liquid voices
gamble with your pale orange 
day and there are neon
promises they flirt with
brown paper bags and
behind his mask you
cannot see the shaman's
wicked grin

now you drink the water
what else can you do



the table

a whisper through bones
of stone and paper
words naked shivering
in the broken light

your flesh trembling you
touch the blisters on a
leather hero with your
latex gloves through a 
window that knows no 
shame
                            and
you watch the wind
steal flecks of truth from
stories you no longer
remember telling

you take your place at
the table  (logic is optional
you are told) so you hide 
your blisters and let your
naked words shiver in
the broken light



untitled #73

curious about the cries
of hungry seagulls a
dog wanders into
a graveyard
from fog dripping halos
of pale streetlights
brief moments dark
and moist emerge
and settle on the asphalt
of indifferent streets
such is the chaos of
shattered fairytales

you own this story
it is yours but now
fall silent the cries
of hungry seagulls

(earlier)
a pair of socks
call them mismatched
if you must but all
they really are
are just two socks
one striped the other not





callback

your sighs lie hot
on my pillow but
do not worship
them          they
are blindfolded
and arrived here only
recently( a betrayal
of the dolls)   in
a place where lies turn
to dust and the need
to answer the telephone
is
not
urgent and where you listen
to sand tickling
 your brain  ( a
betrayal of style)  you
want to buy
a candle why i
ask  ( a
betrayal of dance)


brides

on the marble floor they dance
t'is where angels fear to tread
between the empty pews they rest
and drink from broken glasses
the cathedral  hiding in the moonlight
habits undone the nuns who sinned

then ascends the choir
in sunlight dazzling
glory on their lips
and moisture on their thighs
and on their tongues
the whispers of sweet surrender

between the empty pews they dance
and on the marble floors
their darkened souls betrayed

lucifer's brides

sandals

skeletons escaping the ritual you
unfold like a map while

a fanfare of desires
cascades down a ferris wheel
 you repeat the ritual
at the laundromat a
prism of doorknobs ignites
other plans
you repeat the ritual
then you listen to
the mystical sound of a
floor being swept on
the map brittle sighs play
dominos in the fog
you repeat the ritual



promises

of lost ships and naked sailors
i dream
amid paintings and sculptures
stillborn
you and i (we) dance
fireworks pierce the sky
darkened by chances lost
you remove your
disappointed body from mine
to get a (another) drink
your high heels click
and clack
towards promises we
made long ago and
didn't know we couldn't keep



in my shoes

in the fog
borderline
jump on ice
jump on ice
put on the
red velvet jacket

jump on
              ice
in the fog

fog in my cup
fog in my head
fog in my shoes
borderline fog

jump on ice
jump on ice
in my red
velvet jacket



359 sweep

spend some time
with a ghost
skin
read the words
the words
and get one free
now we must
be patient
for there is no
one to embrace

you can talk all
you want
it all comes
down
to this
you want to be
forgiven
i want to be unborn
you watch a woman
bathing
i listen to the
sighs and
fill the page with
shapes dark
and unfamiliar

pull up a chair



unfinished (again)

ice breath on flesh
look at me
naked and raw
splashing ghosts
across my face
give back my
broken body
there
are places
you mustn't go
candy fire and a
green kiss

you travel light
i know
no need to tell
me again